Spot on, spot on, spot on.
I’ve always felt pretty embarrassed about being human, but nowadays I must emphasize that I feel really embarrassed about being a straight, white male. It’s a loathsome demographic for sure. Number one loathsome!
Though I also realize me saying this is super ‘wah wah wah’ stupid as well, for I am aware of my privilege, my inherent privilege, as such.
Regardless though, even if this feels like an obvious grab for sympathy (which would be undeserved if that’s what it actually was), I still want to write it, cause I do feel it. These last few months, more than ever, have really shown the horrible level of what we can get away with and how it is culturally covered. Kill people in theatres, kill people walking around randomly, be overtly misogynist and racist and stupid and whatever, it’s all good and fine and won’t cause a ridiculous militarized response because…American reality is stupid and founded on whiteness.
When I walk about here in LA (something I try to avoid in general, aha), I sometimes feel too embarrassed to look people in the eyes. And, statistically, I should be! And I think any other random white person with even half of a functioning brain should relate or understand this. The problem is a lot of them don’t.
I feel I am rambling and overly simplifying this, but whatever. This is my embarrassed mind speaking, and mine alone. But then again, maybe not?
Anyway, reality is horrible and if people don’t come to their senses and try to be better towards others, it will stay horrible. (And thus it will stay horrible, because who comes to their senses these days? If anything…people run away from their senses because it hurts too much to feel them.)
((Anyway anyway, fear not…This blog will still continue to mostly be monsters and weird pictures and silly pointless ephemera. However for me to not write about this, at least once, would have felt utterly inhuman.))